I Hate loving you

I hate loving you.
The way you talk to me
The way I wish you were mine
The way I can never tell you how I feel
It's killing me
Watching love someone else and not even notice me
I hate loving you
You talk about the one you love so often
And I have to suffer through it all
All your speeches of love, all your sad emotions that kill you
I have to watch and take it all
When you speak I fall apart
Because I know those words aren't about me
they're always for someone else
But I'm the one that has to listen to it still
I hate loving you
You don't even notice
But then again how could you?
No one would ever suspect it
No one would ever think about it
And that's why you don't either
So i talk with my friends everyday
And try to sound happy and uneffected
Even though I am
You're killing me
My heart breaks everytime I think of you and know that you're not mine.
But you don't see it
When you talk about the one you love you don't notice how quite i get
And you don't even think about how in the world i would know what you're going through when i help you with my words
you don't notice
I hate loving you
i truly want to end this
End my pain of love
I want you to hate me
Tell me I'm sick and that i should die
ignore me even more than you do now
make it so i don't exsist
maybe then i could move on
I could just die and be happy
and you wouldn't have to see me again
hate me please
don't let me continue my love for you
i hate loving you
when i cry you think they're tears of my past
but they're not
they're tears for you
the one who kills me everyday
the one who won't let me go
because you think it's impossible for me to love you
oh how i wish it was
you don't see how much i've really suffered
my eyes hold every secret of my feelings for you
but you don't try to look
because you think nothings there
but even when i wish i could just say
"look into my eyes and see the truth
I love you so much and you don't even notice
you think that no one loves you like that
but there is, i love you
but it seems that i'm not good enough to
have you love me back
because you kill me everyday by
letting me get closer to you and then
bringing my hopes up and then stomping
them to the ground!"
I hate you, i truly hate you for making me love you
you tear me apart with your words
of love for another
so leave me
leave me so i can't love you anymore
i hate you so much, but then i could never hate you
because i can't stop loving you
I hate loving you

by TheForgottenChapter
posted on 06/04/2008