I Don't Know

I'm unsure of what to say,
Because I think of you each and every day.
But what I wrote for you that one night,
Was just not quite right.

You asked me why I did that,
And I told you as blind as a bat,
That it was not out of jealousy,
But out of my desire for you to be with me.

What I wrote wasn't exactly a lie,
It was just a way for me to get by.
Because it hurt me to see you with Carey,
So I began to write those out of jealously.

I've spent every night in thought,
And I can't tell how pain it has brought.
Because my real feelings have now been realized,
And my old ones recognized.

But, I feel that you can do better than me,
Someone who has a better family,
That will treat you for who you really are,
Instead of judging you from afar.

I still love you, and I always will,
I wish I could take some magic pill,
But I can't change how people feel.
And please always know that what we had was real,
Because I truly loved you,
But even after all that we have been through,
I still want you to be my best-friend.
But I understand if you want this to end.

by WakeFan325
posted on 06/03/2008