I'd Lie Again

The first day I saw you, all you said was "hello".
I knew from that moment on, that was all I needed to know.

From then on you were all I could see,
I told myself however, "this can never be."

All through high school I watched you smile,
"I can never have you", I thought all the while.

Even when I moved away,
I could only see your face, only think your name.

Now we’re adults, and you are married,
And I’m sitting here, my face in my hands, buried.

There’s a hole inside of my heart,
I can’t stop thinking of you, it’s tearing me apart.

I wish I had said something, at least been your friend.
Now I sit here hurting, my heart never to mend.

I love you as much as the first day I saw you,
But I can’t say goodbye, I don’t want to lose you.

"How can you lose a love you never had?" you may wonder,
I realize that I cannot get over you, nobody knew I was under.

This pain inside of me makes me want to die,
All I can do is try not to cry.

So if I see you again, I’ll say to you and him,
"I’m happy for you", and if you give me half a chance I’d lie again.

by TheaterGeek
posted on 01/08/2008