Forever tortured by you

The feelings that I have are hard to explain
Im turned around on memory lane
Im lost and cant follow this game

I try to put love on hold
but it keeps creeping in
the feeling has gotten old
but still it seeps between the cracks
could I keep it back?
If I tried would I quickly change sides

Theres no use in hiding from love
no matter how unwanted
You'll always be the prey
even if you shove yourself out of the way
Itll find you when it wants to
it doesnt matter who or where

How long have I had these unwanted feelings?
since we met?
why do I have them
when I really dont know you yet

after forever of this torture
will I have to act?
will you be the first to leave my heart intact?

I tried to leave you behind
but once again you plague my mind
will you be the last to waste my time?
the first to hear the wedding chimes?
or
just one more useless someone
added to the ton
are you one more guy to say goodbye too
or
will you actually stay?

Are you a now?
Are you a then?
Should I act or pretend
I've felt this way forever
but could you possilby be a never?

by ragingquiet13
posted on 10/16/2007