Diary of me

the day is done and you are gone. i find myself losing hope and light.
supper's done and the dishes trashed. another losing battle you always win the fight.
i sit in the shower for what seems like forever. washing the bruises.
i keep coming back, back to our bed and back to this life. back to your abuses.
first i love you then i hate you, your emotions change from hour to hour.
i'm under your spell and i can't break free. i'm under your hand submersed in your power.
but i can hurt you too, i can take what makes you strong and i can stop you.
with this blade i hold and the life in my veins i can take myself, you know it's true.
but i won't and these are just words written on a page.a copy of my feelings. and you stand there being the silent tree.
it's back to our life, our bed, the abuse. just as soon as i finish this page in the diary of me.

by KabrieloftheFallen
posted on 12/19/2007