Dear Sarah

I have never been good at talking
About the subjects that cut me deep inside
But you were the one that rose above the rest
And saved me from the haze

But now we are not on speaking terms
And I know that’s because of me
I pulled myself out, and pushed you away
And for that I am sorry

You are the one that knows most of me
Even the parts I never want to share
That is why I pushed you away
I didn’t hate you at all

You know how insane I can get
And how bad I can fall
But this time is the worse
And I need you right here

I see you all happy in your little world
And I am jealous
Your life is starting to work
And mold its self together

I am sorry for all this
And I am sorry for everything you have gone through
But most of all
I am sorry you had to ever put up with me

For that I say good night
And goodbye

by emodeath
posted on 03/26/2008