Crying on the inside

Almost another year
Time has slowly passed
But my mind is still thinking
How much longer can this truly last
With me feeling, like my life
Is in desperate despair
Wondering why the hell
No one seems to care
About me and how
There actions make me feel
With bs after bs
This shit just can’t be real

So could this be my life or
It has to be just a dream
That keeps unraveling
Before my eyes, at the seam
Looking as if it can never be repaired
Should I just throw my hands up
And believe I don’t even care
About my own life and my struggles
Of learning to put my faith in another

But what surprises me
That seems drastically unfair
Is that they never notice, I’m even there
Fighting to make sense
Out of all that has transpired
In hopes of establishing a relationship
That’s lasting and worthwhile

Are my feelings that unimportant
Or do I make things
Just too hard to understand
For believing each and every woman
Has the right
To have love from a good man
But those are just my thoughts
I may never be able to comprehend, why
Men would choose to kill women
Emotionally from within
So until our values change and
Become more than just pride
I wonder how long, I will keep dying
Crying on the inside

by mzbrowneyez
posted on 07/17/2008