confused

Looking down on blank pages
Words start pouring into my mind
Filling each empty line
Writing things no one tries to find

Spilling my heart to an empty page
Fighting between tears and rage
No one ever sees; no one tries to read
Because they dont know how on the inside i bleed.

I dont share with anyone
Only my paper
Being afriad of what people will think
Is my torture

Then i looked at him
And he flashed me a smile
He walked over to us
Things were ordinary for a while

A little part of me expected something
But i tried to ignore it
I tried to drowned it out
I didnt want to be intimate

I hugged him daily
He squeezed me tight
I inhaled his scent
Everything felt right

I denied him my heart
And he started to fade
But we ended up back as friends
Careful that that was what we stayed

We started talking more often
But he was still a mystery
I told him he needed to talk
And he could confide in me

Then something confusing happened
I dont even know
But something important has changed
And i have no idea how things are going to go

by XfadedsmileX
posted on 02/21/2008