cant hold on

I can't hold on.
But I won't let go.
A part of me fights,
for something I'm not sure of.
How can I stand this one last time?
The pressure is on,
and it's pushing me under.
I try to use a mask,
and act like I'm okay.
That seeing pictures,
is not bringing tears to my eyes.
It's so hard to stay strong - and go on with life.
I can't hold it in any longer,
I feel like I'm losing my mind.
I'm making myself sick,
I can no longer eat.
I rarely sleep.
I stay up all night, remembering the good times.

Watching my tears
stain the pictures of yesteryear.
I thought it'd be easier - letting you go.
But I'm officially stuck,
and there's no way out.
I've lost all hope,
of ever getting over this.
My hope is in us.
That somehow it can prevail, though it seems quite unthinkable.

by xangelchildxx
posted on 05/16/2007