Am I supposed to be happy?

I always wondered why i cried,
why i missed you so much,
why i would wish you would come back,
so i could see you and such.
i wondered how i have made it so long,
living without you in my life,
hoping that i could forget you,
secretly wishing you could come back.
i want to see your face,
i want to know that everything is okay,
i want to hear you tell me you love me again,
i want to feel your hands on my skin,
i want to know that this is all a bad dream,
but my wishes and wants,
all vain and selfish,
but i miss you so much,
and im just dying for one more touch,
to tell me you still feel the same,
to tell me that you made a mistake,
and that you want to see my face again,
you want to know that i forgive you,
you want to hear me tell you i love you again,
you want to feel my hands on your skin,
you want to know this was all a bad dream,
but the truth is,
the truth is,
you cant stand me,
you are sick of my problems,
you dont want to see me,
you dont want to look me in the eyes,
you dont love me anymore,
you wish i would just disappear,
like i was never even here,
you think the only mistake was ever loving me.

by lost2theWorld
posted on 07/21/2008