alcohol

I hate the times you yell and cry
when your sober thoughts
come out in drunken words
you say im a burden
and i should just leave
i shut the door but forget my keys
i turn around to find the door locked
as i walk down the streets
it hits me that i have no where to go
so i head back home
im so alone
you wont answer the door
i collapse on the porch
and wake up to you asking me what happened
i have to remind you what you said
the tears and apologies come out
i hug you and say, "mom i love you no matter what"
you promise it wont ever happen again
two nights later im sleeping on the porch
i dont know how much more i can take
but i wont give up on you
you never gave up on me
its not you i blame
its the alcohol
i love you no matter what

by mommytobe
posted on 04/30/2008