"Solemn Drink"

This solemn drink I drink slowly
Kills me, for the Air I breathe no longer fills me.
I wander this life with many interruptions.
I live a life of happiness; why is this everyone’s presumption.

I may walk this world with a smile on my face,
But truly that is far from being the case.
My pain and sorrow I do hide,
It is the one thing I have always denied.

To tell the truth would be my last confession,
I’d have to die to liberate my depression.
I have seen so much with my eyes,
I have witnessed all the lies.

I have been thru many situations where my faith has been tested,
Lord I have struggled with the pain and sorrow, these feeling greatly detested.
But no matter how much I prayed for your angels to guide me,
I lacked to one thing, I knew would be the only thing to save me.

I rose from my bed I lied in night after night,
Only to forget about the man, who gave me everything including my sight.
The birds could be chirping, the sun brightly shining, and the air crisp and clear,
But still my day would be filled of yelling, gray skies, and the smell of un-cleanliness near.

Nothing could content me,
I seemed to live in constant fear.
Jack was my only friend, in this world so cold.
He shared his heat with me, and made me feel so bold.

He convinced me, we would do well living life together,
Made me believe my problems would weigh lighter than a feather.
Until the day I was blasted by life’s realities,
Jack was not my friend; he had me living my life thru fantasies.

Jack entered my body thru misconceptions,
He twisted my thoughts and perceptions.
God came to rescue me slowly; freeing me from Jack’s possession.
I felt my need for Jack was greater than anything, my true obsession.

Though still the pain lingers from time to time,
And although it’s evidently still hiding inside; I know I’ll be fine.
God lifted me up, and sent his greatest angel to save me,
He sent his son Jesus who came to this Earth determined to free me.

Jesus died for my sins and took my pain with him,
He washed my soul clean and empowered my dreams.
My need for Jack, my solemn drink is no longer my want, need or desire,
God has picked up, put me back together, and carried me thru life’s raging fires.

by TMacias
posted on 08/19/2008